Dear Kisstal,, you might want to try learning some Panic Attack Management skills, they also work for Anger Attack, and other loss of control situations. essentially, they require that a person practices them before the loss of control, so that they are strong when you need them... if you need help finding a source of learning, i will try to help, but you can start at your local library. if you live in a large city, there is a good chance you can find an Anxiety Management Support group for free~! hope you take action to get this back under your control,, and best wishes,, Gus