I knew in the back of my mind that I should never divulge this type of information. He would say things like "its worth the risk" and "im always here for you" and you can trust me. I tried to end the friendship twice and he would always talk me back. I would also say that I am an absolute strong person my whole life and never thought I'd find myself seeeking this sort of emoptional help over some friend. I know ill get through it and I appreciate all the support. Have a wonderful Day!