The others are right! If you try AA, you'll find others just like YOU. AA saved my life ~ I would be dead right now if it wasn't for AA. I drank heavily, and every night for over 20 years - until I called AA and thank God someone answered the phone. They talked to me, and I met someone the next night to go to a meeting with ~ that was July 29, 1993, and I haven't had a drink since.
I didn't take it a day at a time, like a lot of people do. I took things a MINUTE at a time, cause a whole day was too much for me.

Pretty soon those minutes added up to a whole day.
Give AA a call. You'll be surprised at how things go. God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee