I've told him to stick it, until
a. I get paid for my time
b. I have recovered and have some energy back.
The problem is that none of them are vaguely technologically minded, I put together a spreadsheet to help them, yet they still need me to capture and balance things.

But I need to look after myself - as much as I love him. I will just feel guilty if something goes wrong due to me not being able to help.

I'm really going crazy in my own skin right now. I feel emotional and know I can burst into tears at any moment. I am physically and mentally exhausted. I cannot hope to be productive at work. My chest is getting tight and at the same time I feel like i just want to scream.
I battle with abandonment issues. Yet I just want to run away and be left alone - to my thoughts, my emotions, my crazy brain. But then I also just want to be comforted and held...!?!? Don't know where to start, but sitting in an office is NOT ideal. But it is my routine and what I know