So... this is a kind of stupid post really and I am kind of reluctant to make it incase I am making a huge fuss over nothing and imagining stuff but...

Some days... not often... I kind of lose track of what happened in the day. Like this Tuesday. I can't remember what happened and I am fixing on the idea that maybe I went to the supermarket but that might have been Monday. If so what did I do on Tuesday?>?? Even on Wednesday I couldnt remember what I did on Tuesday, and I thought Wednesday was Tuesday. And maybe it is because I'm tired, it is late here, but it is hard for me to remember what I did yesterday (Thursday) and as for Wednesday now I have no idea. Though I might have written it in my journal and will remember then probably, but I don't have it with me now.

And today. Today is Friday. Can I believe it is Friday? No. My aunt is coming to visit and I am still afraid it is not Friday and I've missed it, or that it is earlier in the week or something. I keep asking if it is friday and i still don't beliueve it. I keep doubting if I am here if if I am asleep in bed or something. It makes me feel crazy and so unsure of myself. I keep thinking I am not making sense though I think I am. Thoguh I do know I keep rambling. Also I got upset because it is 11th Nov. today, which is Friday, for sure, and yesterday, Thursday, I thought the 11th was Saturday even though I knew it was next day. It's so confusing and tiring. This does not happen often and I am glad, but I wish it didn't.

And I only just realized that I haven't asked the question despite the title. is this dissociation or am I just going crazy. probably just going crazy. It takes all my effort just to capitalize everything which is why i'm not bothered. I wish I am certain of my reality. I know I am not in bed asleep but maybe I am??? It freaks me out.. I wish I knew for sure and didnt keep wondering.