I am also worried about the boring part.
I want my life to be fun and exciting...
it seems i only have 2 choices, Be bipolar, risk my life and everything in it and all my relationships and hope i get through the overwhelming urge of suicide or selfharm, or go on the meds, do the therapy, live a lovely healthy life.
I cant imagine either of those, i dont want to not drink alcohol, i dont want to have a routine, i dont want to be settled!
and i hate the fact i dont have that choice, to just be a 20 year old girl who can go out and face the world and experience EVERYTHING!