Lex, I have a sort-of similar incident in my past, and the shame and guilt is incredible and has convinced me that I am really the rotten, worthless, horrible person I have come to believe I am. People tell me God has forgiven me, but what I did was so heinous that I don't think even God can handle it. I have begged forgiveness, but I don't think it can be forgiven.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Lexicon}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} it hurts, I know. And it's not possible to make peace with it, I don't think. But maybe we can learn to let ourselves off the hook, someday, somehow.

Candy