Hi Midnight!

I too suffer from deep depression. Sucks, doesn't it. I want you to do one thing for me though...I want you to keep praying...don't stop....give this over to God. Suicide is not the answer. Believe in God. He can heal you. I know he can. Don't lose FAITH. Tell God you want to be healed. Tell him every day and every night. Don't give up. Tell him you want to be healed so you can participate in your childrens lives. You have to be actively praying. I keep telling God to heal me every day. I know my time is coming. I know I will get better. Have you read Joel Osteen's book, It's Your Time? If not, then go to the library and check it out. It is very inspirational. By the way, he lives and ministers in Houston. I wish you all the best. I wish you all the happiness in the world. But most of all, I wish you peace and healing. Take care my dear.