do you know how much i admire you. everything you say i can relate to except for the fact that you seem to find the strength to carry on and that inspires me!
i know it doesnt feel like it but you aren't failing in the fact the you're still going to work and still living life, if if you're not feeling it, you're doing it.
A lot of people cant do that, i certainly cant.

My love goes out to you though, have you tried good old fashioned chocolate? even if it doesnt help it still tastes good! x