So today's session was weird, my second session with my new T. Although I like her, I am noticing I don't trust her at ALL and it's disconcerting. I didn't used to NOTICE that I didn't trust people and my old T helped me become more aware of it. And now I am VERY aware of it as I am noticing how difficult it is to open up to this new T...

Last session, I told newT a lot about my past. She told me at the end of session to note any reactions I had to sharing all that with her. Today I got in and sat down and this is basically how it went:

T: So, I'd love to hear about how you've done over the past two weeks. Did you have any reactions to our last session?
Me: Um, well, yes, but it's uncomfortable to talk about. I don't really want to talk about it.
T: Oh, that's interesting.
Me: Um, yeah, I'm sorry, I don't know, I'm really anxious right now.
T: What do you normally do when you're anxious?
Me: Um, I don't know, try to think about something else, try to ride it out, wait for it to pass.
T: Would you be interested in doing some breathing or some bodywork with this anxiety?
Me: (silently panicking, terrified, thinking "NO WAY! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? THAT STUFF WILL MAKE ME WAY TOO VULNERABLE LADY")
Me: No, no that's okay.
T: Okay. So what would you like to talk about today?
Me: *change the subject to an intellectual topic* *talk for the rest of the session about my work frustrations* *obviously completely avoid the anxiety that began our session*

Yeah. Awesome.