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Originally Posted by ladyjrnlist
I've been in a depression for about two weeks. Managed it as best I could, kept going to work and grad school. Even got an A on a midterm. But the spiral got much worse today and I cried all day between bouts of working on my term paper. THEN, I get a call and find out I'm laid off from work. AND my car needs $700 in repairs.
My T is seeing me first thing in the morning and my hubby is trying to be supportive. This helps.
I have to go clean out my desk after therapy. I think I'll throw the stuff through the windows.
I'm eating ice cream I shouldn't have and thinking bad thoughts all over the place.
I'm sick of being depressed and I'm trying so hard to use all my (snotty voice here) "coping skills." Saying mantras and affirmations, blah, blah blah BLAH!!! Who cares about that anymore??? ARG!
I was hysterical earlier, laughing and crying and freaking out. Calmer now, but now I'm getting pissed off as heck.
Now, I have the stress of this job/income stuff on top of school. Yay! 
I'm getting ready to wrap myself in foam and live in the closet to avoid stress. Cope with this!
Sorry, needed to rant.   |
And you do it so well! Rant, I mean.
Sometimes it's just so much more satisfying to be completely, utterly, undeniably pissed off. So...know how you feel about the job..I'm unemployed and the cleaning out of the desk is the worst part. And everything seems to happen at once, doesn't it? Give it some time and things will look a little better and coping will come more easily. But in the meantime, enjoy the rant.
Oh yeah, and the foam idea is brilliant!
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