I was molested as a child. I repressed it. I "discovered" them in March.

I'm not near my friends or anyone who knows

I need an outlet.... I'm hoping this can be my outlet. I'm alone right now.

Tonight, Vomit actually came up. Never have i had that reaction to anything. Except when I had a stomach virus but other than that nothing. I don't get hangovers. Things just don't come out my mouth. but tonight...

Private Practice is one of my favorite shows. I love it. It's Serious and real but funny at the same time. I've never missed an episode. Tonight she was raped and she talked about it and I connected with her. I knew exactly how she felt I know. Then it came.

When is this going to be over. I wish I never remembered. i wish it never happened. I wish I was who I was before this happened. Before I uncovered it.