Thanks to everyone for their support. I do have a hard time, a lot of the time. But I try my best to give back when I am feeling stable.

I just cannot wait to get my meds sorted and be more stable. I'm teaching my boyfriend about BP every day, and he's getting a lot more supportive - but I know what a nightmare it must be for him to try and follow my moods and understand my irrational behaviour.
I crave human attention, yet at the same time often wish i could run away, sit on top of a mountain, and just stare away into the horizon. I really can be such an emotional person on the inside, yet come across as a strong, possibly rude, person to those that don't really know me. I know I appear hard, I swear, I tell people what I think of them, I have rage issues... but that's the BP and trying to wear a mask at other times.
I am not a shy person, but i can become to introverted. I spend so much time in my head; I don't allow myself to deal with emotions, as I tend to dwell on them (Not sure how much sense that makes)
It's only 8:30 AM here, and other than being very tired, I cannot put my finger on my mood today yet. Did tell my bf I intend to take a sleeping tab and sleep all of Saturday to recharge some batteries - physically and emotionally.
It's been a bit of a roller coaster this week. Last weekend I visited a friend and it was good to be away; but now I'm back in the reality of life and having to roll with its every punch. I have to take on responsibility again, for myself, my boyfriend, my happiness...
Wow - just realised I can write an awful lot of waffle; guess that's what happens when your brain is a jumble and runs away with you...!