(((((((Treehouse)))))

Is it possible that what you won't always need/want that from T? And that if you continue working and becoming healthier, those feelings will just naturally resolve themselves?

I've been thinking about this and trying to zoom out and look at the big picture, and this is what I see -- You just went through some significant trauma processing, which means you made yourself very vulnerable and your feelings for T are very big right now. And that's ok. It's great acutally because you NEED that right now. But that is *now* -- it won't be like that for always. It will be like that for as long as it needs to be because T will always be there for you.

What you said here jumped out at me:

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You say "you have to find a way to get these needs met outside of therapy" or whatever. But that's just it. I CAN'T, because no one will ever know me the way that you know me. Everyone's love will always have "but they don't know the REAL me" attached to it.

When you say people outside of therapy don't know the REAL you, is that because they don't know about your trauma history? Therefore they don't know how bad and awful you really are, and if they knew they wouldn't love you?

Maybe you are still weighed down by shame, the shame that really belongs to the perp. Maybe once you work through that and begin to accept all of that as part of you, but not necessarily what defines you, then you won't feel like you need T's love so much.

Maybe you need to continue therapy until you can understand and accept that who you are to the rest of the world - to your H, your kids, your friends - IS EXACTLY who you are in the therapy room.