I would have had a panic attack too! That's scary stuff to go through as a mommy. You didn't do anything wrong. If anything, it showed her how much you care because you got upset on her behalf. That's no weakness.
Please talk to a doc before changing the meds. Maybe they can help tweak them for you. Mine are being tweaked all the time. It's like I need a tune up every other month.
Don't give up on it. This is a constant struggle, I know. Maintaining emotional balance, having to focus on your thoughts and feelings most of the time, it's hard when you add that to the stresses of daily life.
We are glad you are here. Don't give up on yourself or treatment. It's an ongoing process, which sometimes quite frankly, sucks major!