Yes. I am upset.

I refuse to open my mail anymore. Tonight I got a bill from the landlord's for half my sercurity deposit. As it seems Cliff (my EX brother/EX roommate) had them split my deposit with him. Cliff knows this is wrong and I went over with him, why he doesn't get half is because he didn't pay half and if I gave him half I would essentially be giving him back half of my money. Regardless, it happened. I am calling tomorrow and complaining. I am not paying it. I will not allow anyone else to pay it either. Apparently he said he showed them something saying it was okay. Something that I never wrote. Can they do that? THe place was in both our names? But doesn't the sercurity deposit stay? Its up to me to give it to him if it were his? Or the check comes as a two part name? IS this illegal? IT does not sound right to me at all? What am I supposed to do? I am already short money being off a week for nearly dying and having my baby die which probably was a result of stress from this stupid crap last month. I cant sleep. ambien sucks. i am sick of being poor. i am sick of people taken advantage of me. i am sick of feeling alone in life. I am sick of nothing mattering. it is one vicious circle. there is no happy medium. i will never get ahead. i cant do this anymore, how am i supposed to? I dont understand how i constantly am being thrown to the gutter in each attempt i try to do good. i really am not a bad person. i have my days because i am mentally ill to a degree but still....what is up with this....i give up....there is nothing that will ever make anything half to okay...this is it....my spark of life has died.......I meerly exsist on this planet. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....................what next? What next?