hi tree,

i was just logging on to PC because i feel lonely too, but i was like, "how on earth am i going to make this related to psychotherapy so i can post there where my people are?!"

anyway, just thought i'd reach out and say that you're not alone in your lonliness. i'm going through something similar (well, i had a decent october, i'm talking about the other stuff) as two of my good friends are on vacation, one is recovering from knee surgery, and my partner is out of town. and like you, i feel disappointed.. well, more ashamed really, for some reason.

so. what can we do to get out of our funks? hm..

are you taking care of yourself, physically? i think that can really help. be sure to take a shower and get something to eat.. maybe listen to some music or watch tv to distract yourself. where are your kids at the moment? maybe try doing something with them to get your mind off of things. can you call your therapist and leave a message? even though he's out of town, maybe it will help you to feel connected to give him a call. or try listening to one of his messages instead.

those are all the things i can think of. the only other thing i'll say is that maybe it would help you not to think of this time of struggle as "november" (or before, "october"), but just as today, "friday." that way, you're not locked into feeling like you've got to overcome an entire month of stuff, just stuff from a single day.

hang in there!