Thank you (((ozzie))) (((time)))) for sticking with me here. At least today's weather is clear and cool .... but that's about all the relief I feel. T had reminded me of how at times like these my muscles go into contracture... and my nerves literally "fry" with sensory input... plus having had NO physical therapy this week...I have to rest. sigh it doesn't matter what I don't do.. I'm going down hill. All I can think of are things I should be doing... or could be doing IF one thing is a once a year event I was to do risk management with... sigh. I have failed everyone.... ok I know that isn't the right way to view this: I AM disabled I AM unable at times I AM limited I do feel so inadequate... unworthy of living. . . I have had some not so good support in chat here ... I'm even thinking of reloading the update for my ISP that messes up being able to go to chat, anyway. yeah. stay out of chat. I'm here too much. I'm ANY where too much.