It surprises me that I have made very little friends in my neighborhood, dispute living here for 7, almost 8 years. Actually at the moment I can say I have none. My last one seemed to just suddenly stop liking me for some reason. I hate it when that happens.

I try to do things when I feel like doing them. You know, I'll get my moods and get that sudden energy rush and wanna clean up the tables and the desks. Once I washed half the stove, without anyone telling me to, and that stove hadn't been washed completely in like 4 years. It was extremely hard to do but I just felt like it doing it. My just felt like it moods don't come around very often though.. maybe it's because when I do these things, instead of something nice, all I hear is "good, that is what you SHOULD be doing" again reminding me that I am not meeting people's expectations 90% of the time.

But this weekend is DEFINITELY going to be relax time. My aunt is taking my brother up to her house for the WHOLE weekend, plus where i'm going on saturday!