xxlostandlonelyxx welcome! The usual fun of welcoming another person to the forum is tempered by the anger that I must say your so called friends' and family's responses provoke in me so i will say little on that account. I am glad you found the forum and hope that you will find many here who can share their experiences with you and assure you that yes, some of us have extremely bad luck in the people life places around us, and no, even if many of them say certain things, they don't have to be right. Certainly not things like that! HUGGGGGGGGSSSSSS and I hope you find this a warm and supportive place!