I've never seen anyone post about something like this, so I'm not expecting replies.

Does anyone else, besides me, feel like their therapisti has too much presense in the room? Too much of her is there. I know it's her room, not mine. And I know we are separate people. But her presense is too big. I've told her she is a distraction. That I say or don't say something based on her personality. Maybe this is just part of therapy, I don't know. But she is very lively and a fast thinker with a much broader vocabulary than I, and it affects therapy.

I'm not stupid, but I've had to tell her several times to not talk over my head. (Does she do this for fun?)

I've told her that silences are helpful to me. (Okay, sometimes they are a place to hide, but other times they are like taking a breath.) She 'tries' but silences are hard for her, she wants to fill them up. When she says that then I feel guiltiy for asking her to do something that is obviously difficult and unnatural for her.

She says it is analysis. She is an analyst. But it isn't traditional Freudian with lying on a couch and free-associating. Which is what I expected and have trouble getting past no matter how much we talk about it. How can it be analyis if we talk about "us". I don't really want there to be an "us" that is so big we need to talk about it. (Does that even make sense?)

Anyway, a couple of examples for what they're worth. I'm tempted to delete this because I know it says volumes about me but oh well, I guess I can take it. lol