Hi There,
I am an "older woman", who has not been with a man in many years. When I was in my teens I had a fear around possibly being gay. Over the years I realized I was attracted to both sexes, but haven't really been sexually active very much in my life. I fantasize at times and would love to experience being in a loving relationship with a man. I have obessed about sex or lack there of over the years. I have a female cousin who is quite tough minded and sarcastic. I was a brides maid at her wedding and during that time, I was aware of feeling intimitated by her. I notice as a woman at times feeling this way around certain "tough" women, I realized afterwards that she thought I was gay and of course, this has been spoken about with other family members. I have no way to "prove" otherwise because I haven't been with ANYONE in many years. I have the perception that if you a person who is perpetually alone it automatically means you are seen as "gay". Are there others out there who have had this experience. I know I shouldn't care, but every time I attend a family event, I feel such shame and focus on my aloneness AND what the family thinks of me.