I obsessively think about certain people. Ive always been imaginative and always had a whole different world in dreams.. I think it may be subconscious. Ive posted things related to this but i feel that i need to get this off of my chest. The lonliness eats away at me alot of the times. I think my mind finds things to distract me, which can be annoying. I start to think about my future and other normal s&*t but i also think about being in relationships. I start to focuse on certain people and constantly think about them. I know this is a problem of mine and its really hard to deal with. I dont want to blur dreams and reality. I dont want to keep being a recluse. Im already emotionally unstable. My emotions are all over the place. I long for love and affection but i know i have to be healthy mentally, physically, emotionally.... And the weird thing is i would much rather think about my future career than a relationship. My emotions suck.