(((((((((((((((((sj)))))))))))))))))) of course! the words would literally stop somewhere in my throat. I can still do that but not as badly.

I look back and wonder what miracle or change came about and the only thing I can tell you is...I bit that fear bullet...hard.

I bit it and things came out. Did I feel like my heart was gonna explode? yep! Did I feel that all of the things that I worried about didn't come true (i.e. he would think badly of me, I would just die, etc)? yep! He still respect, listens to me and wants to help...maybe even more.

I literally had to force them past my throat.

Good luck, honey.

KD