I am wondering if there is anyone else out there that thinks like me. I have been depressed pretty much all my life, but have experienced some normality inbetween breakdowns, so I have kept going. 2 failed suicide attempts in the past, but decided after the last one to carry on until the kids are grown up and are independent with lives of their own. I am a single mom, and I am all they have. I think if I killed myself now, they would suffer too much. It will be less of an impact when they are out of the house and don't need me so much anymore. It will only be another 2-3 years, I think. Can I make it? Most of the time I wish I could just end it now, but I can't do it to them, not now.

I think I am the only person in the world that thinks like this. Am I?