Toughgirl, wht a great metaphore about the rechargeable saw! You have a clever mom! Jazzy, if you want to leave the house, maybe that's what you need to do, temporarily, at least. Get out. Take a long walk or a short walk. just out and go. don't give yourself too much time to think about it or prepare for it or even think aloe the way, just go, then turn back when you think it's time. I know that might not be quite what you mean, but it might bet your blood flowing, help your body function a wee bit better, clear your mind a bit. It helps me when the depression makes me feel like the mother of all slugs. The i can't get started on anything, much less think straight.
Otherwise i can do little more than listen and nod and say, yess, I hear you. I know what you say, because I have felt it and will most likely feel it again. My body still aches with it if I think about it too long. I have friends still trapped in it. while one is in it, it is hard to see the end of it, and to feel the edges, but it does not stretch into infinity. It can't. Remember that. HUGGGGGGGSSSSSSSS. I hope that the clouds clear for you soon, dear.