Bless your heart! I know that was hard to share.....but you did it and deserve a good pat on the back. I can't imagine what you are going trough entirely, but I can imagine some of it due to I am living it. Sucks. I have a hard time keeping friends except for one who I have shared every side of me. Some times she gets really pi**ed off at me but she ALWAYS comes back. She is a real trooper and I love her to pieces. I admit I have put her through hell and back buy my constant ranting when I see her because I don't have any one else to talk with about my deep pain except for my husband. However, he and I have fought really bad ALL weekend so far because he says he can't take it ALL the time SO.....I need to try to get a grip for my marriage sake. I don't want to make him sound like a bad man because he isn't. He has stayed by my side for the past 6 1/2 years and supported me through so much. Not many men out there like the one I have. He is just tired that's all. So he has agreed to due the free support groups held every other week for people that have been in the mental hospital as I have twice since I have lived in Texas. I was also in them 3 times before I got here, I knew I was going to lose my kids to their evil father and I did every thhing I could to stop it but in the end....he won so.....I lost it and broke down and to this day I have a hard time with that. I don't know how to be just a wife with out my children. Anyway, are there any support groups you could go to? They really do help. Plus they are free. If you are interested but don't know how to locate them let me know and I will help if you like.

Good Luck