Last time I felt like this I went and bought a car I could not afford, parked it outside with all the paperwork legal ie: I taxed, MOT and insured it. Drove it about 3 times then left it sitiing there until I scapped it a couple of months ago because It wouldn't start one day and I got so angry I never went near it for nearly a year. I spent hours looking out my window watching iit with pure hatred. Then went to Morocco on a whim meaning I could only afford heat part of the house followed by buying a sewing machine and tailors dummy because I wanted to make my own clothes though I have no experience which resulted in a nice top which I got complimented on and suddenly in my head I was the new Chanel. That wore off when I couldn't get the next design to work and so not touched the machine again. Now I am itching to buy another car though I know that as I barely leave the house it would be a waste of money and besides I can't afford it.

It's nearly Christmas and I can't afford to go off the rails right now but the urges to spend are getting high again and I'm struggling to fight it