Hi again lonesomedove,

I can really relate to this. I spent most of my life (up to my late 20's) living with or near my mom. We did everything together. At times I miss her so much. But... it also could be a difficult relationship b/c she drinks a lot and always has. Since she moved away 3 years ago I have been the one who has pulled away. So I guess my situation is more that I have pulled away for my own mental health reasons. But... I just wanted to say that as you begin to get out a little bit and meet a person here and there you may begin to find someone who you really enjoy spending time with. I think pretty soon you may be able to find comfort deep within yourself for spending time alone or with a chosen friend. I just wanted to say... True, I don't think that "longing" ever really goes away. But over time it can fade and the person you love and care for (in this case your mom) takes a certain place in your heart while you grow and learn to live and enjoy your life without them... I think therapy can really help in this area...

Sending supportive thoughts...
E