Yesterday was absolutely amazing. I went to the Agricultural Winter Fair in Toronto with Deirdre, and it was really fun. I got to see horses, cows, goats, chickens, sheep, etc. I got a block of this really delicious fudge, I tried a buffalo burger which I thought was good! I also got a free bean seed that I'm gonna grow and a seed kit for a white spruce tree! An actual tree, I'm gonna grow from seed to Christmas tree !!

I also found out though that Deirdre is now no longer just my big sister because volunteer services are cut off for me as soon as CAS closed the case. But, she already works with about 30 other girls as part of her work and because she didn't want to just stop seeing me, she added me to her case load, with my permission and now she's my worker! So she can set me up with counselors and go to doctors appointments with me. She can talk to my school about getting some plan worked out. She knows a lot about how I feel, and how I used to be and witnessed my social withdrawal and all of that, so she is going to help me A LOT! Plus I get to see her every other week now instead of every other month.

My Dad doesn't really see why we need her to do that (I said it was good so we had proper direction in what to do for me) and he just said all I needed to do was actually go to school and we wouldn't need all of this. As usual he's not really getting it but I guess I can't do anything about that.

But even so after I came home we went out again, my Dad and I, and we bought things for dinner and breakfast, and warm winter sheets for my bed. I managed to clean half of my room yesterday too. Without my brother here, there has just been a sudden calm in my house. The level of energy, chaos and stress in the house has gone down a lot. I'm sure it's not just me who feels this way but I think my Dad feels it too cause he doesn't seem as stressed out.

I feel like we went back in time for a while, back to when I was 8 years old and it was just me and him living together and no one else. When we laughed a lot and nothing was stressful and nothing was ever wrong.