Hi AloneInBoulder. Welcome! I'm really sorry you're struggling. I have big anxiety issues too so I know just how bad that can get.

I agree with you that being broke is a huge source of stress, misery and hardship. But I know there are plenty of rich people who are screwed up, depressed and suicidal too. I would still always choose to have money though and I agree with you that it makes life a lot easier. It gives you freedom in a lot of ways. And it gives you options and security. This is worth so much.

I'm really sorry you're stressing over financial stuff. I hope it helps a bit to talk about your issues here and that we can offer you some support