Thanks for the reply. I don't think i can go back even part time, i get very anxious when i'm at and had been strugglin before i went off on the sick. It fills me with dread and terror, and my friend who i live with has been askin whether i've been lookin for a new job or not and that maybe i should jus go back to my old job for now but she and her parents have no idea what i'm going thru. My sister had a similar problem when she lost her son and then her mum a few months after. She was off for 8 months and felt similar to me, she eventualy went back but she doesn't have bipolar like me but does understand how i'm feelin and supports me a lot. I jus can't go back to work especially as my meds are not sorted properly yet as i was only officially diagnosed 4 weeks ago so that has had a big impact on me to! I feel bad cos i know they can't afford the rent without my contribution so i'm stuck!