Thats exactly what i found with CBT, we spent the whole six sessions concentrating on how i deal with stress at work cause in the first session, i had just come from work and it had really stressed me out.
Because i always have so much going on in my head, i find it so hard to communicate with doctors and people, i wont have finished my sentence and they will kind of stop me and change the subject and i will be like, "i havent said what i meant to say, what i have said isnt even right!"
But yes i do want to live, i just want my life to be better, i want to like myself and i want to succeed at at least ONE THING!!
I want my friends to love me.
I will start the diary again i think.... Thats another thing wrong with me, i have NO self discipline, i can never make myself do stuff i dont want to do!!
Thank you so much for the advice, i like how constructive it was, which is what i need cause there is nothing constructive in my head!