lol Blueoctober I can assure you I don't have a shopping addiction! I'm not in debt, have no credit cards and by nothing unless I have the cash though it may mean scrimping in other areas at times. The point I was making was that I recognise the sign that I am basically flying high is when I am as irritable as I am and suddenly feel the need to focus on something which can be anything and at the mo it's the car thing. It's the urge that is the worry in that I find it so hard to resist. I know how weak that sounds but it's obsessional in that I physically don't sleep, research constantly and do what I must to achieve the goal no matter what. It's scary the lengths I go to and I don't know how to stop it!

Lara - I don't take meds so the hand shaking was not a med side effect, I don't know what it was exactly!

I know you all think a trip to the Pdoc will sort this out but after the experiences that I have had, I don't exactly hold out much hope they will help as they haven't before during previous "episodes". According to them, if you can describe a mental illness then you don't have it. Their words not mine. So tell me how I am meant to have faith in these people?