Well the day passed and i was so busy with my nephews that I was good

I still have the occasional thought about Louis.. hate that I have no answers to what went wrong there..... other than trying to acknowledge that my T is right and I didn't do anything WRONG..

I have my first overseas holida coming up.. so nervous but starting to get excited too...

I still miss Lou.. he was the one that was meant to be on this trip with me
But am doing it to get myself out of my shell!