The thing though, I'm horrible with friends. I'm horrible with people all around. I'm a very selfish, dramatic, bossy and angry individual. I envision how I want people to be around me, how I want the situation to go, and then always get so upset if it doesn't end up that way. I blame people for things they cannot help and I push a lot of my friends away. I have trust issues and the fear that everyone is out to get me; that everything someone says is a lie.

I suppose you could say, I use people as a punching bag, and as soon as they grow tired of it and I have nothing left, I use myself.

It's hard to see beauty in something with such an ugly personality.