I have thought the same as you, but came to the realization that it will still hurt my family as much then as it would now. I would hate for my daughter to hit those adult milestones without me by her side. How long has it been since you have been on anti-depressants? Sometimes they don't work as well by theirselves and you need some other med to help stabilize you. It wasn't until I was put on abilify and my cymbalta was increased that I became stable. Just a suggestion.