One time I went out on medical leave and the sick pay did not cover my bills and debts, I could not consider moving b/c it was too costly- deposits, bigger rent, moving my things and I could not find anything less than what I already had. So it meant staying where I was until either I was back to work or something else gave. Unless there is family or a friend to help, I could not consider moving.

Which is more stressful to you, the interactions themselves with the family or not being able to pay your bills and paying them what you owe them? Moving isn't going to solve that. You'll still owe them. If they are helping you now, they sound concerned, and yes, need the money from you but also sound concerned.

When I needed to go back to work, my anxiety level had hit an all time high, frequent panic attacks, and fear so overwhelming it was paralyzing at times. I hated my job that I went out on leave from but the possibility of finding something new for me during that moment was impossible; if I couldn't go back there and prove I could, it wouldn't have mattered where the work was. Fear of going back was the same no matter. The doc and T helped me through this.

I love your plan to talk to your physician and the other providers. Work with them to help you to manage your symptoms and the anxiety. The world will look better then and you will have more confidence to deal with the family and possibly going back to work sooner than later, which will also solve the issue with the family. Once back to work is when I found I could go look for another job, as the financial pressure was relieved some and could pay some of my debts, my confidence was back, and there was less strain and desperation in my voice that would have come out in an interview, besides a more than likely panic attack from the strain.

If they are holding your job for you, it is to your benefit to back for your confidence, financial reasons to hold you over, references, and to save you from having the pressure of job hunting without an income which is THE route of your strain right now for yourself and dealing with the family. Also, going back to what you know, though not what you want to be doing, can have some comfort in it for when you first go back as twisted as this may sound; you don't have to learn a new position as you get refamiliarized with working again.

It is scary, no doubt. But fear in this case is more the issue and the docs and providers can really help with this. You can do it! Really!