This might also help you and the family you live with work out some type of payment plan for the back rent owed, so that you don't have to carry this around like a monkey on your back. I know how that can feel, to owe money to friends can be a very difficult issue, even if they understand. It is best get it taken care of as clearly as possible. Also, "coming out " might well take some of the strain off of your situation, dear. You have been under so much stress. HUGGGS!