all my life i've been a bit depressed. As a kid, i wished i was invisible. I've had suicidal thoughts since i was an teenager. The last 5 years have been worse. I want to talk to my T about it. I in no way though want to talk about it as if im thinking about it. Its like this hidden thing that I just want to expose. I don't think i would ever tottally follow thru ... its just a painful place that I want someome to comfort me in. IS there any way to discussed that kind of pain without freaking someone out,.