I miss my mom so much right now. She had cancer 4 times...the last time killed her. Now something is happening with me that I need her advice on...I'm spotting and don't know what's wrong. I never spot...I'm never abnormal in any way. If she were here she could tell me what is wrong...she was a nurse. She knew everything in that profession.

I need her to comfort me...tell me everything's gonna be ok...that I'm gonna be ok. I don't want this to be cancer or anything serious. I don't want to be pregnant. I don't want anything to disrupt my life as it is now. I just want my mom. I want her in every way that a child can want a parent...I need her right now.

I was hoping my grieving period was over, but it's not. I'm really scared and I know she could help me out now. Everybody thinks I'm overreacting to this spotting but with my mom's history of cancer I can't be too careful.

I'm really scared.