i could feel it coming for days. just the unsure of myself feeling. slightly lethargic. yesterday i couldnt breathe kept trying really hard. my normal chats with some friends were not me. i wasnt spunky and funny and lighthearted. one chat room i had to leave because it was overwhelming me. well today i was back on just kind of hovered didnt say much. but today after a couple months of not crying i broke down and cried. everything was too much my son came home and i couldnt handle any of the mess so i cried out for him to clean in and for him to do his homework. all the while bawlinh. there was no holding in anymore not this time. i am so so tired. i am even crying as i type this. i want off this rollercoaster.