Healing is a hard process. Maybe you could try and figure out why you are doing this. Yes, I think that is one of the things she will want to talk to you about. There are things that you are trying to cope with that are causing you to exhibit this behavior. She can help you with these issues and help you find more positive coping skills.

When you are ready you will bring up this subject with her. Please be patient with yourself as it is a hard subject to talk about. Remember you deserve to feel safe. If you can try and let her in to help you. That is what she is there for.