Thank you every one. Yes, I have a T. I must stop due to how shall I say, I am not asking for anything, but we can't pay him so....he won't see me. piece of **** made me this way, all the ECT'S and look at me. I am so full of hate, anger, lonelyness and more. My husband says I am worse now than before I saw this T and did these treatements. I don't know what to do now. I don't give a damn. God has left me, I don't trust in him even though I have this fake beautiful picture in my sig. He loves as he chooses, and I am not the chosen one. oh well. if that picture helps any of u, great. I need to post else where I think. I don't want to hurt any one with my hate, my anger etc. would the moderator kindly send me a private message telling me where i should go? I think I will stop now. I wish all of you the best, I mean that. My posting is stoping for a while, but I read every day.