i have the constant feeling of being inferior to anyone else. i feel less than those around me. i feel selfish and unkind. my appearance isn't greatly improved by me being in the midst of my teen years and having extremely sensitive skin. washing my face with the most gentlest cleansers will dry it out completely, and then i break out and its just not fun. my hair is very "fly away" i guess, and can look like i haven't showered in 5 days after one night. it doesn't help that while following my dad around on his paper route last week one of the security guards thought i was a boy. both my parents have perfect teeth but i was some how not blessed with this and have to wear braces, and my eyes are really horrible from so many years of sitting around in front of the computer.

I've had friends, and strangers tell me I'm very pretty or cute. But then there's the other side where I've been called anorexic because I'm thin, as well as too fat (?) or like that guy called me a boy when i wasn't wearing eyeliner (which is the only thing i wear), or i look like a nerd, or "i should really dress better" cause i like baggy sweaters.

I really envy those girls who know how to put themselves together, who know what type of clothes and hairstyles work for them, and can afford to buy 100 dollars worth of products to live and look as a celebrity.