Today hasnt been a terrible day. Wife got to see her neurologist so hopefully he can continue to treat her pain. :: Maybe one day all this medicine will just click :: I dont remember much of the day. It has been such nice weather for this past month, for the most part, that I spent the day outside for as long as I could.

I have been noticing that my creativity is starting to show out a little more. I havent hit the hypomania yet this time, but it seems like it is on the cusp. While I know it isnt healthy, I still have the "guilty pleasure" of those moments. The addiction to the energy. The extreme passion and energy to finally accomplish something. The one-track-mind of it all.

I keep hoping that the nurse or doc can look at starting me on some prozac again. It seemed to help in the past so I really think it could help again. Luckily, I feel that the bottom end of the moods has been lifted a little bit. I still tend to switch to that down side and I hope that I can continue to get out some of these dark moments a little better.

For the last 3 weeks the wife and I have experienced something so great. Today was the first day in about 3 days where I could see my wife again. Not her covered by pain. Just her being her. I think maybe I held in all of those personal skeletons. Things done so long ago, I hoped that they would have passed by. The problem is that for some reasons, these skeletons have stuck around. The ability to be open, honest, and secure enough in someone that I trust her with so much, is an amazing feeling. Hopefully this next month continues to be such a bonding moment as this last month has been.