Thank you, place.

I've been struggling with the depression for over 20 years now. It's hard to see a way out of the constant cycle. I need help, but when I say that I get asked "What do you want us to do?" Heck, if I knew that I could do it myself.



I understand what you say about it getting easier with time. To some extent taht is true - I do now recognise the signs earlier. But what gets harder is KNOWING that this will return again. It's like a life sentence, and that is hard to deal with. Hard for me to deal with, and harder to deal with the effect MY weakness has on those I love. That has got worse with time, not better. How do I hide how I am from my daughters? How do I help them to cope with the possibility of being like this? How do I help them so it doesn't happen to them? That just gets harder and much much worse with time. I can't help myself to not go through this - how on earth can I help them?

Sometimes I just feel they'd be better off without me.

C