Thank you. My racing thoughts are probably one of the biggest problems, i always have such a lot going on in my head and it doesnt shut up!!!
For some reason, i have found the mental health help in my area excellent, i am in the countryside in the UK, so every other part of the NHS is rubbish, but i went to the GP, she referred me straight to this team and within a week we had out meeting, in another week they had sorted out that i was going to have a 3 month assessment and then after that they give you a 3 year treatment plan if you do have Bipolar or Psychosis etc.
One thing i am struggling with is how to tell me my mum.
When i was struggling with depression last time, i wasnt living with her, i text her and she came and picked me up, for weeks all we did was argue about it, she didnt agree with me going on anti depressants and believed it was something i should fix myself.
I dont want her to say that again, so havent told her anything since then, i am living with her again now.
She is constantly going on at me about losing weight, and i want her to know its going to be harder than ever, plus it her birthday coming up soon and she wants a big party and wants me to get drunk with her, i dont know how to say that i am going to need to stop drinking, cause thats another problem i have, i get very bad on alchohol.
Oh i hate it when i do this, i cant stop writing sometimes, i dont even realise how much i write sometimes!