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It's happened. I've been wondering when it would happen, when I would crash badly after DJ's heart attack. I was ok yesterday, ok last night before I went to bed, but I've had 2 or 3 warnings, instances of being emotional; at one point I just stood at the kitchen sink and cried.
This is deeper, darker, worse. I'm running around like a chook with its head cut off and feel much less than appreciated in any way. On top of that theres the feeling of sadness where there should be a feeling of relief.
I am so confused right now and of course after 2 days of the most beautiful weather the day is greyer than the deepest winter. I feel like retreating and never coming out again.
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Peace, the deep imperturbable peace is right there within you, quieten the mind and slow the heart and breathe...breathe in the perfume of the peace rose and allow it to spread throughout your mind body and senses...it can only benefit you and those you care about...I care about you
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