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Everyone has been so quiet. I can feel Morgana there just watching me but not thinking anything and definitely not speaking to me.
When DJ had the heart attack she got us showered, dressed, decent and on a 3hr bus ride to the city. It looked like I had my hands crossed in my lap, but it was Morgana holding my hand all the way there. She didn't take over, she just made sure I was able to do what had to be done.
I cried on the way home in the car with my SIL. I have not left the house to make a trip like that in over 4 years now. I thought I would feel proud of myself but all I could do was cry. I will admit I felt thrust into a situation I did not want to be in. I felt lost and nauseated, just as I do now.
It's hard to post for help, especially when I don't know what help I need at the moment. I guess if I'm to be honest, I am hoping someone else knows what I need and will offer it to me. This feeling of being lost is something I just can't come to terms with, and the others are so quiet that even though I want their help and presences I am not getting either.
....Can anyone tell me what I need right now? Has anyone been in this situation? I know I'm not the worlds only and would never think it. I think I'm just reaching out for the help of those who have been in this situation....I really do respect experience as well as support, it's always difficult to ask for either....
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Peace, the deep imperturbable peace is right there within you, quieten the mind and slow the heart and breathe...breathe in the perfume of the peace rose and allow it to spread throughout your mind body and senses...it can only benefit you and those you care about...I care about you
Last edited by Rhiannonsmoon; Nov 09, 2010 at 07:25 PM.
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